It's not my business.
The day was very sad. I realised you can't be changed. and my mom would be very upset if she knows what life I have been doing.
No one cares what you have done, they just play with you for fun, you ruin my life and your life too. and you seem not to care. you're not normal, I'm too normal. I know what will be happen if I do this, do that. and I avoid it, I go away, just say no.
Drinking is not the bad thing, I like drinking, but I do not drink if I have to work next day. you can fuck up anyone in your office if you don't want to work permanently.
does European all selfish? I will stop it if my friend keep drinking and I know it will ruin his life, not just to boyfriend. that's why they are doing, darling.
keep cleaning your mind is the most important thing, drinking can not help you to solve your problem, you don't want to solve your problem, that's obvious.
Any addictive stuff all is like that. what's the important thing in your life? you can not be an adult if you can not find out whatever how old you are.
I went out for silence. Walking in the street, met one cat and one ...don't know what it's called? we looked at each other, I moved forward then it backward. I had tried to trace it but I gave up. it's like what the point is to trace it which doesn't want me to.
I'm lucky. I know what I'm doing and I know my mom would be very upset and even crying if she knows my life is like that. Working in Coffee shop and forget what I have to do. they think I work hard and hard for my life, but I am not. I know I just lose the way and convinced myself I am not.
Finally, I woke up because of my mom, I know we are not close enough, I don't really share everything to my mom, but I know she's a good mom, I don't want to waste their concerned.
